Life taking a swing

Wow, last post was at 2011...
Let's re-cap, hmmm... I've been busy, with work, trying to discover life and all that..
but I have been keeping a small, tiny diary with me, just to write down my everyday thoughts....

On a more serious note....~
Life has taken a swing in my life. Yesterday, I received news saying that mum had just experience mild stroke. I was like, what???? This can’t be true, this can’t be happening to my mum, my family, I mean… It’s not possible.
My mum did not have sickness before.. but that was the harsh fact of my life now...

Mum has always been there for us... taking care of us by making sure that we can have all that life has to offer, sounds cliche, is it?
I mean, yeah, you might say, which mum doesn't do that? I mean, typically, & logically, that what mum should be doing. But, I really feel that mum had sacrified a lot for us... I don't even know if I would do that for my children, if I have any next time. Dad, well, he's always been there, but... It's different~

Monetory, we have to be prepare for the medication & consultation visit ... etc.. but I am hoping Mmum would be strong & fight it with all she has, cause she's all I have.

Love you Mum...

Me being me...

“Open Up and Speak Up” they always said. More often, it is so much easier to say than done. Why do I ever start the post with this phrase? Well, it just crosses my mind.

Today, as I was driving to work, I saw a girl, she was in a Rapid KL bus She was sitting in the bus with her facing down, my guess would be that she was trying to catch a short nap before reach her office, but the sad thing is that it was in the morning, at around 7.45am. Cannot imagine how would she felt once she reached her workplace!

Sad scene for me... I always know that the kind of work that I want, but me being myself, always have indecisiveness in my mind. Once, I vowed that I would never be in that position, but now, I cannot say much.

Why, do I let myself to be in such situation?
Is it myself, not being grateful to the opportunities lied before me?

The heart and mind is arguing with each other…Man, life is hard!~~

Just started to work for around 8 months, I know this is not for me. I would not be here for long. The question is …for how long more, Sui Inn!!

Wake up and smell the roses!
Sometimes, I just wish I could just disappear! I have no issue, you see. But, I am just being, Sui Inn.

New Chapter had Begun....

The working life is very much different than during study~
Been working for nearly 4 months now, I cannot say it's long nor short. It's a long process that I had to go through. Many that needed to be faced in the working life.
Life seem to be harder,
True Friends seem more difficult to find,
Time is never enough,
Sleep is a luxury.

Working just to earn a living is so wrong.
I know I must make a wise decision.
It's now or never.

Keeping my fingers crossed and pray for the best.
Wish me LUCK !!

Another great journey ahead

Life is a climb, says Miley.
Options in life are endless,
once the choice had been made,
one wondered,
what if...

what if the other road was taken,
no use in looking back,
it's ahead that one must be looking forward to.

At this point of life, I am feeling torn apart. Starting this new chapter in my life is very unexpected.

A New Chapter

Welcome to the new chapter of my life. The study life is almost over, how fast it had passed me by;I could hardly believed that the end is finally here. I am standing at the end of the road, ahead of me I anticipate so many challenges waiting for me. Looking back on the road I’ve taken over the years,I had gone through so much and met so many people and I am blessed, truly I am.

I know I had done some things that I am not proud with, being self-fish, self-centred; I can’t help it at times. Looking back I am trying so hard to grow, to achieve greatness. And I don’t leave that as an option in life, because I know I must get it right this time, this lifetime. I am grateful for all the people I had met, my wonderful friends that accept me for who I am; for stand by me at times of hardship and the support that you had given me. You had given me strength in ways that you could not have imagine, even as little as text massages would definitely made my day. The times that we spend together, all those memorable moments, would definitely be in my minds all the time, all of you exists in so many pages of my life chapters, how can I ever forget you?

In the university years, I thank for Best-est girlfriends ever Ai Ling and Jiu Hui; how can I ever thank you girls enough. I love you so much, I am sorry because I know how terrible I can be at times. Those memorable time we spend together completing assignments, staying up so late for our PEMAJU events, celebrating birthdays together and those time we spent; talking together and sharing about lives and plans in the future. I know after this, that time will hard to come by, but I shall always cherish those great times together. Not forgetting, Kit Lin, Jo Yong; I wish we had spent more time together, I love you girls and I know that you will never forget me too. I truly enjoyed the moments we spend together and wished you the best in future. Not forgetting the KPMers, all of you, from juniors to my course mates, I am happy to get to know all of you, but I just hope I can get to know you more. I know one day, you would have forgotten about me, but I would not blame you because, I know I am trivial in your memory.

To the PEMAJU gang, there are so many of you THE MECHY-guys; you know who you are, you guys gave me a different perspective on guys, truly all of you are one of the kind. I had already missed the DIANA moments, and that enjoying meetings, meetings and meetings. It is so amazing how our lives are intertwine with each other, it so wonderful to work with all of you that are so energetic, talented and capable. I love all of you so much. You guys are the craziest bunch of guys that I had ever met in my life. Don’t you ever dare forget me, because I never will. How I can ever forget the crazy time we had during CDEX, sleepless nights, tons and tons of photos taken, the abuse of the walkie talkie? That memory will definitely put a smile on my face each time I think of it. All of you paint so many colours in my university lives. Not forgetting all those I had been working with in my department (Program and Protocol). I shall not mention names, but you know who you are. Thanks for the commitment and efforts, I really appreciate it. I had learnt a lot of you, for that I thank you.

To my dear Tanjong siblings, i am really glad I had been given the opportunity to be a part of this great family. I truly cherish those moments with D'Jungle People, working attachments, Steam boating, and of course the community service that we had joined together as a family. Each and everyone is so unique and smart, I really hope we shall never forget each other.

Yeah, there are also the Yellow Armies, that went through thick and thin with the Advisor, Commander and I. Also, the Golden Key Exco and members that I had worked with it was indeed nice to know you so bright and talented people.

Lastly, to everyone that i had not mentioned, sorry for that. I am leaving this chapter already, new chapter is waiting for me, how is it going to unfold? Will I ever meet my prince charming, well, let’s wait and see.

How Fragile Life is?

How fragile life is I wondered?
Lives are snapped away from the body, living the mass behind, buried it underground with all the memories.

Lives are so fragile, too fragile, that it can break... no perfection in lives.
There are devils inside human, masquerading and pretending, once human unaware of it; we are being taken advantage of. Children, women and men became their victim. Every day, somebody’s daughter is raped and killed, a man being murdered, a women being abused, a foetus being abandoned and murdered.
How fragile their lives are?

Who is to be blame? We seek comfort in blaming someone for the misfortune. But honestly, why are human so cruel?
The devils are taking advantage; killing and robbing, and blaming their fate for that. Society in turn was blame for that mishap. I cried for justice when I read those cases, and always pray that I would never have to read that awful news the next day. Whose responsibility is that, is anyone up to hold that heavy responsibility? If it is not you, not me, then who?

Dear God, I pray that no one would ever to endure such suffering, it might seem impossible, but I prayed for the well-being of all. A series of event in my lives flashes in my head as I am writing this down. I think about my girlfriends, my guy friends, my family, my siblings...
Lives are so fragile, so treasure it, and keep yourself save, never give in for anyone to take advantage on us... Be cautious at all time...It’s a wild world out there.

Destination or Journey?

Yeah I guess a picture paints a thousand pixel, opps i mean words. So many assignments, I know I had said this in my previous post but now is SUPER critical period. 24 hours seemed so short, time is so precious.

I guess many final year students feel it too, pressure to finish the project theses and projects, my gosh it's all work and work. Working life must be like this i guess.

Many always think of life as a journey, the path that leads to our destination. Always they said it's the journey matters the most rather than the destionation, but how can this be true, cause we need to focus on the end result and therefore tends to neglect the process all together.

But one question remains in me: What I Must Accomplished to Make Me Truly Happy?