Result is OUT...

This is madness, the semester result is out so as the pervious i went to the website to check my result.

And i got 4 FLAT, yes you herd me right 4 flat, just that mine is all B+... Somehow i found it hillarious, seriously, well i was a little nervous when i thought about it but when i got the result i could hardly believe it.

I laugh my heart out.....

What actually determines my grades?

All is undercover like Sherlock Holmes solving his case, because you can be getting good marks for the 2 tests before and when it comes to your final grade it sucks like hell!
And tiada sebarang surat-menyurat atau rayuan akan dilayan atau diterima.
The staffs there will stare at you like some kind of hungry hawk, if you ever asked them.

Hell ya.....

So now i have ( or rather need) to fight for the final semester... so that i can grad with my own satisfaction, regardless what others feel about scoring in exams, personally i feel it's depends on each person's view.

You want it, work for it.
You don't want it, buzz off.
You don't care about it, then DON'T mention it.
Understood!!!???
It's all crystal clear...

Hell i miss A...(i sound so kiasu, right?)

yes man, yes man, yes man (my post-syndrom from watching YES MAN)

The chapter of my 7th semester had finally came to the end, but there was not a great relief from it. It's more like "Ok, fine this is over so what is next?"

Many of us(the final year students) came to disbelief that the semester had ended, and time seemed to speed so fast that sometimes we lost track of it. Many take for granted for the things we had, but that how life goes, right?

This is THE final LONG break that I am going to have, i felt a little dread, i am approaching the WORKING life that many had whined about. Some even warned us to enjoy our university lives as there is no more ultimate fun during working life.

I am still searching for the direction in my life, so many things i want to do in life, but sometimes, i am just scared of the unknown. I know i shouldn't, but after all i am only human. Feeling and emotion sometimes tend to conquer my mind. The heart and head are always arguing. What is right? What is wrong?...

I guess i will know when the time comes. When the time comes all would fall in the correct place, all seemed so prefect and wonderful.

At least i would like to put it that way...

Lyrics to On My Way Here :
Clay Aiken

I took my first step

On that black and white kitchen floor

I sometimes wonder if that house

Is even there, anymore

I had my first glimpse of love

When I was five

I watched two people split apart

But still the three of us survived

I've seen the best

I've seen the worst

I wouldn't change what

I've been through

I've touched the sky

I've hit the wall

But I did what I had to

On my way here

Where I am now

I've learned to fly

I have to want to leave the ground

I've fallen hard

But I've been loved

And in the end it all works out

My faith has conquered fear

On my way here.

My address has changed

Almost every year

I've found that standing still

Can quickly make a lifetime disappear

I'd rather try and fail

A thousand times denied

And this, whenever you feel pain

It lets you know that you're alive

I've been a fool

I've been afraid

I've been loved

I've been lied to

I've been wrong

And I've been right

I stood up when I had to

On my way here

Where I am now

I've learned to fly

I have to want to leave the ground

I've fallen hard

But I've been loved

And in the end it all works out

My faith has conquered fear

On my way here.

No guarantees

I believed that

I would find

An open door or a light

To lead me to the other side

I guess that is why

On my way here

Where I am now

I've learned to fly

I have to want to leave the ground

I've fallen hard

But I've been loved

And in the end it all works out

My faith has conquered fear

On my way here

Save the Cheerleader, save Milo..

Hectic week it has been.. Having marathon of TESTS this week, gosh...after finished i still felt stress with my FYP. This will last forever!

Yesterday, went to watch Pathology, the attraction point that drew me to the movie was Milo Ventimiglia....., the guy from Heroes.( Hearthrob)..

I have high expectation on him judging from his great acting skill in Heroes. When, the movie started i was like Yeah, Milo...Luv it......then when the as the movie progressed, it was a let down. This may cause by the censorship of the movie that make left me in the dark what had happened in the scene.

The plot is rather weak, and there are just TOO much of UN-necessary of killing. It's like kill here, kill there, kill all....duh...Kill and analyze if i should put it.....

But credit is given to the guy who played Dr. Jack Gallo(Michael Weston). He was insane-ly mad, well if there is such a word....ha ha....

The scene i like the most is the ending of it when Ted (Milo) faced Jack...that's it....

Milo acting wasn't impressive ... He is better to save the cheerleader!!!!

But it's okay...i still luv him..haha...

well maybe i should stay away from Horror flicks....

Eruption

Oh Goshhhh....I am rushing for my FYP, yet i still have no "mood" yet to study...Arghh...the design had make me felt like exploding!!!! I felt like erupting!!!.. I know I should keep my focus and continue with my assignments and committment, damn it it is so hard!!
I maintained my composure when around friends but inside my heart is YELLING out..

okay..now got to study for test2 packaging ..it is ALL wordssss...cannot tahan lah...

Self-actualization

I had always prioritize others before me.

So much so that, sometimes I sacrificed my own interest and preference for other people need, especially my family. I am not a saint, but i really did take a lot of non-sense that my siblings had put into. I also tolerate with people around me.

But, last week it all changed. How it happens and why i dont know....

This changes my perspective in life. I must for one LOVE MYSELF.
Everything that i do i do it for ME.
I need to be SELFISH,
i put my OWN INTEREST before other people.

As i was typing this i felt "how could I think like this?", but i guess this is how things go...or i will lose out...

Final Year Project Oh Final Year Project....

My final year project is....."Design and Fabrication of Automatic Rice Cooker Machine".

I don't know how that sounds to you but it was an interesting topic for me when i choose it=)

Now at week 7 of my studies in this semester in UPM i still feel lost with the topic...well, not actually lost but the vision is rather vague...The reason i choose this topic is because i want to learn something from my FINAL year. All this while my academic result had been satisfactory, but i strongy feel that i am lacking a lot in KNOWLEDGE. This is proven when i attend the Finishing School last week.

Oh FYP...... Oh FYP......

Makan FYP, Tidur FYP,Mimpi FYP

ie Eat FYP, Sleep FYP, Dream FYP

me

What’s in my life that I want the most?

I yet to know, I yet to discover that one thing that will change my life, yes this got to do with my feeling. I don’t know what I want in my life, one used to say that in our life we need a direction that will head us to the correct direction. But I feel like I am in this huge pirate ship with a map in my hand, yet I don’t know where I am heading. The map seems useless as I do not know where I am heading. I am a spur-at-the moment kind of person and planning is the very last thing that I want to do. This is not a very proud kind of attitude I must say out, but this is the thing that I must change.

I will, for now I am still on ship....