The chapter of my 7th semester had finally came to the end, but there was not a great relief from it. It's more like "Ok, fine this is over so what is next?"

Many of us(the final year students) came to disbelief that the semester had ended, and time seemed to speed so fast that sometimes we lost track of it. Many take for granted for the things we had, but that how life goes, right?

This is THE final LONG break that I am going to have, i felt a little dread, i am approaching the WORKING life that many had whined about. Some even warned us to enjoy our university lives as there is no more ultimate fun during working life.

I am still searching for the direction in my life, so many things i want to do in life, but sometimes, i am just scared of the unknown. I know i shouldn't, but after all i am only human. Feeling and emotion sometimes tend to conquer my mind. The heart and head are always arguing. What is right? What is wrong?...

I guess i will know when the time comes. When the time comes all would fall in the correct place, all seemed so prefect and wonderful.

At least i would like to put it that way...

Eruption

Oh Goshhhh....I am rushing for my FYP, yet i still have no "mood" yet to study...Arghh...the design had make me felt like exploding!!!! I felt like erupting!!!.. I know I should keep my focus and continue with my assignments and committment, damn it it is so hard!!
I maintained my composure when around friends but inside my heart is YELLING out..

okay..now got to study for test2 packaging ..it is ALL wordssss...cannot tahan lah...

DayS At "work"

22 June 2007

Sitting at my desk, i am counting days. The clock seemed to be very cruel to me, as if it purposely ticks slower just to annoyed me each and everytime i looked at it. I need to endure this atmosphere for another week before i free myself from here for good.

Maybe because i am just here for temporary, and i have already set my mind that
"I'm leaving, soon!!".
But i am not enjoying every bit of it.

There is Soo* whom i thought to be all nice and friendly, then all of sudden she "attacked" me with her "sharp" words. Silly me, being new i cried, felt very sad and wondered what i did wrong. I was confused why she said that i hated her!!! At that moment i really thought it was my fault.

After days, as though nothing had happened she approached me and talking so-ever friendly to me. It was not that i am very cruel as not wanting to forgive her, but her attitude seemed so FAKE!!

It is easier to forgive, but to forget, I guess that will take a LOT of time, definitely!

The office gossip was another thing! It was so essential here, without it i could easily dozed off on my desk. Stories from maids, children, to their own colleague color my office day.

However, looking at the bright side of it, i am constantly learning how things worked around here. Not the technical part, but the human valueS. I may not have time to realize all these things if i am actually working here. I would have been too busy. Their attitudes and actions
are like a "live" class to me.